If I would have known that your life would be cut short, I would have held on to every conversation that much harder. I would have let you know in person that you were important, needed and loved by so many, but especially by me and my dear sweet husband. I would have taken pictures to help make those great moments we shared last forever. I would have recorded your voice so that I would be sure to never ever forget it. I would have never have erased any of the conversations we had via email/text message... I hold the ones that I kept so dear.
There are so many "could have" "would have" and "should haves", it is enough to make a grieving friend go crazy! Instead, I will continue to do what I have done since the day that you passed. I will write you letters, and share my thoughts and feelings- but from this day on, they will be place here and not just in my thoughts.
My hope is to keep you alive. Keep my memories of you flowing, keep your voice in my head, and to also -hopefully- have others that knew you and loved you so much share theirs as well. I don't know who will find this blog, maybe no one, but if by chance someone does, it is open to everyone. Who knows, maybe one day your sweet girls will find it one day too, and they will know what you so desperately wanted them to always remember. you told me a few days before you passed, that you wanted them to always know that you loved them more than anything, and that you were a good dad.
Like the title of this post says, you were my BEST FRIEND. I hold you so close to my heart, and will always keep you there.
-Kellie
Dear Dustin
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